Learning to believe

by Ella
(Bliss, MI, USA)

Wow, Livy, that was awesome! I love it. My current heart-situation seems a little off-topic, but hey! It is what it is.... whatever it is. O_o
Bear with me here, as I try to explain my heart to you... which will be hard, since I don't really know it myself.
I think one of my biggest spiritual problems is also one of my greatest blessings: I've grown up hearing this kind of stuff. And since I've grown up hearing it, none of it seems ground-breakingly real to me. Does that make sense? I have a hard time(oh, such a hard time!) with forgiveness. I keep saying stupid things, or snapping at my siblings, and how does God forgive and FORGET? I sure don't. Not to myself. And as much as I want my relationship with God to be totally real to me, I just don't always feel it.
This sounds worse being read than it really is, but I have no idea how else to put it. As Point of Grace sings:

Lord I don't need some mountain moved for me,
Or some miracle to behold;
All I really need is just a little more faith
To believe what I already know.

I know there are much bigger problems than mine,
But Lord if you get the time,

I don't need the waters to part for me,
Or to see those streets of gold;
Well all I really need is just a little more faith
To believe what I already know.



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Jan 10, 2014
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Thanks
by: Ella

Thank you so much, girls. <3 Means a lot.

Jan 06, 2014
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by: Livy

Ella, I know exactly how you feel. It's funny growing up in the church because like you said, we hear this stuff all the time!

I've talked to God about that a lot...wondering why I'm so stale and numb to everything He's done? Like, if I was a new Christian I would be totally floored and all excited. Where's the wonder of it all?

I think the best thing we can do is just continue talking to Him, ask Him to increase our hunger and say, "Thrill my heart! Give me a childlike wonder! Make me excited over this! Teach me something new!"

Ella, your faithfulness even when you don't 'feel' anything, means so much, and God certainly rewards that. :) Pushing through even in the midst of the mundane is what He sees in your life and honors you so much for it!

When we press into Him despite how we feel...there's nothing more beautiful than that. :) <3

Jan 06, 2014
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Hey!
by: Samantha M.

I know exactly how you feel. You're not alone, Ella :)

Jan 06, 2014
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Hey!
by: Samantha M.

I know exactly how you feel. You're not alone, Ella :)

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