Learning to believe
by Ella
(Bliss, MI, USA)
Wow, Livy, that was awesome! I love it. My current heart-situation seems a little off-topic, but hey! It is what it is.... whatever it is. O_o
Bear with me here, as I try to explain my heart to you... which will be hard, since I don't really know it myself.
I think one of my biggest spiritual problems is also one of my greatest blessings: I've grown up hearing this kind of stuff. And since I've grown up hearing it, none of it seems ground-breakingly real to me. Does that make sense? I have a hard time(oh, such a hard time!) with forgiveness. I keep saying stupid things, or snapping at my siblings, and how does God forgive and FORGET? I sure don't. Not to myself. And as much as I want my relationship with God to be totally real to me, I just don't always feel it.
This sounds worse being read than it really is, but I have no idea how else to put it. As Point of Grace sings:
Lord I don't need some mountain moved for me,
Or some miracle to behold;
All I really need is just a little more faith
To believe what I already know.
I know there are much bigger problems than mine,
But Lord if you get the time,
I don't need the waters to part for me,
Or to see those streets of gold;
Well all I really need is just a little more faith
To believe what I already know.
